2018 Resolution Update: April
Happy Easter, everyone! Even as I have settled into the life of a Christmas and Easter Catholic, it’s the latter that has always held the most significance for me. I’m a big believer in our struggles (and yes, suffering too, sometimes) being a path towards renewal and rebirth.
Hmmm. This might explain my occasional martyr complex. But hey, don’t blame me. I was born on Easter. Dying over things and coming back is what I do.
Anyway, on to the resolution update!
Resolution #1: Do fewer things, better
Look Ma, I’m delegating! There’s no way I’d be able to herd two teams to US Quidditch Cup and do the behind the scenes stuff to get an MLQ team rolling before tryouts begin. I’ve gotten better about delegating, but I still suck at asking for help. I’ve gotten better at taking help when it’s offered, though. Baby steps.
Beyond nerd sports, this is still very much a work in progress. I’m half-assing a lot of things right now, and while my half-assing is pretty good, I keep getting hung up on how much better I could be if I could focus.
I still feel torn so many ways that I feel like I can’t focus on the most important thing: myself.
Resolution #2: Keep a regular workout schedule
Have I been going to the gym regularly? Yes, but I still wouldn’t call it a schedule. It’s more like the 2ish mornings a week I don’t have an excuse not to go.
However, I have been sticking to the intention behind this resolution: leading a healthier lifestyle. Still eating the things I like, but less of them. The result? Your girl is down twenty pounds since Christmas! I’ve gone from a size 14 to a size 10 and I feel far more comfortable in my own body. Success!
Resolution #3: Try to focus on the positive
This is something I still struggle with, but I am trying. I’ll always be someone who looks around and finds something to be unhappy with because life’s not fair… because I keep thinking, “But it should be!” Some days I feel like everywhere look, there are wrongs to be righted, but no one cares but me.
(There’s that martyr complex again.)
So maybe I’ll always be angry. Or at least, I’ll always be finding fault in things. But I can channel that anger into positive outcomes. Whether it’s making the changes I want to see or calling attention to them so that someone else can, using that anger to fuel me, rather than letting it control me, might just be my superpower.